I was trying to think of the cruelist and most embarrassing torture for me and I've decided on what is also the simplest. I can't think of anything that I'd hate more than to be forced to hold my pee. But to make it even worse, it would have to be out in public. Just the thought of it gives me shivers. But as a masochist, I want to be ordered to do it so badly. The pain would be exquisite. I know I'd hate it, but I'm so looking forward to trying it. I just wish my wife would order me to do it. And do it out in public. And then when I just can't hold on anymore, be ordered to let go...in public...staining my pants for everyone to see. This is my ultimate fantasy. I would hate to experience it, but I so want to.