sucking your own dick is the ultimate act of sex, completely fulfilling in and of itself. those who can do it are an elite and most fortunate group. in my case, it took considerable hard work to achieve a high level of penetration. to do it for decades and then lose the ability (we all get old and our bodies change, usually not for the better!) is a devastating thing and in my case, led to a desire to have 69 sex with another man who has a dick like mine (a little bigger will be ok, too!) it seems to me that 69 sex with a man whose cock and body are like mine will be like selfsucking without the contortion, and I am looking forward to mutual cocksucking with the right man.