By GingerPubes [Ignore] 06,Apr,26 06:11 Pageviews: 37
 My life is very complicated.
We're definitely in a FLR (Female Led Relationship). Its been this way our whole relationship since before and during marriage. I guess you could say that tbh, in reality I have to admit that I'm pussy-whipped (but I secretly and honestly enjoy it). We didn't even have sex on our wedding night. She wasn't in the mood. We don't have sex anymore (her choice) but since I'm bi, I'm kinda ok with it. (I actually used to have a suck buddy in the next town over who I met with regularly before we lost contact. We spent a lot of fun time in his bed) My wife's very much overweight. She's a BBW. Her big +size and my puny cock just don't match up. I think she lost interest in sex because she probably couldn't feel me in her anymore. She even stopped letting me go down on her, and of course no more of anything from her. Not even handjobs. She's very self conscious about her weight. She's about 5'10", 240 lbs, 42D tits. I'm only 5'7", 180 lbs, and maybe 4" cock. She doesn't allow any pics of herself. I actually wish she did know that I'm bi (it's really a major factor for me) and I sometimes think about telling her. If I did, I'm actually thinking of suggesting that since I'm so submissive anyway, that she should cuckold me so that she could take on a lover or at least have sex with someone else and I could watch, jerk off, and even clean them up. I also sometimes think that she might even be gay or bi (but won't admit it), bc she's very much into LGBTQ rights So, that all being said, I really do have to be very careful for now about arising any suspicions. I really do want to meet up with a guy at some point, but my options and opportunities are limited. Timewise and geographically. If anyone has any ideas please feel free to run anything by me. I'll try my best to accommodate you. And you wanna hear something funny? I'm actually writing this at 2:00 AM, Sunday night (actually Monday morning), right in front of her while we're watching TV and hiding the screen from her. Almost like I'd subconsciously want to be caught. But not really. I think that would kill me, but maybe that's just my submissive masochistic tendencies and desires. (I have been caught hot chatting in the past and it was not pretty.) (I've also been spanked in the past and liked it, but not by her. She'd think I was nuts…and maybe I am…a little 😆  |
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Unfortunately I can't travel due to wife's disabilities and the fact that I have to keep my downlow life secret. Take care. Sending you a friend request
And on the wedding night, she was too tired. Seemed reasonable to me. But the next night was the same. She didn't feel like it. Before getting married, she let me suck on her tits. Afterwards she told me to leave them alone. Also, like your wife, she didn't like her cunt licked. Damn.
But unlike you, my cock is big. It was a difficult fit it into her cunt. Probably why she sucked it a lot. But gradually over time she cared less and less if I was happy.
Talking her into a hand job was not worth the bitching about how it made her arm hurt.
For me, I would love to find a paid sex partner. Although I love getting my cock sucked and would happily let a guy do it. And although I have never had an attraction to any cock but mine, I have reached the point of trying to suck cock if it will get mine sucked.
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