My wife keeps me in chastity most of the time. She controls when I’m allowed to be unlocked and barely lets me have any real sexual relief. We almost never have sex, and she doesn’t really like my dick anyway. She says its too small.. Most of the time I’m just locked up, frustrated and constantly horny.

The only times she sometimes takes the cage off is when I go hiking or to the gym. She knows I need some freedom and movement, so she allows it — but only for those specific activities. These are basically the only moments where I can escape her control for a while. And if I’m being honest… I use these opportunities to finally get some sexual relief behind her back.

When I’m out hiking or working out and the cage is off, it’s the only chance I get to feel like a man again. To get properly hard without permission and without her watching. Sometimes I just need to jerk off quickly somewhere, just to take the edge off. I find myself getting naked and pleasuring myself in progressively more public and risky situations

She has no idea how often I use these “allowed” moments for more than just exercise. I check in with her like she wants, but sometimes I lie about where I am or how long I’ll be gone… just so I can have a few minutes to myself and finally cum.

I’m not proud of it, but I’m also not sure how much longer I can keep going like this without any real outlet. I miss feeling desired. I miss being able to cum properly without having to sneak around.

So I’m wondering… do you think I’m wrong for using these moments behind her back? Is she right to keep me locked and denied permanently?