Just because you get an idea and get a little courage, do not go for the one night stand in some out of the way glory hole environment. There are a multitude of men dating sites out there. Do a simple search, join a site that seems like it has some semblance of an honest reputation and then begin contacting some of the individuals. Go slow and do not allow yourself to be trapped into a situation where you will be compromised. I remember the first time for me as an adult and the guy was everything I expected and most importantly, he was patient and respectful. Talk is the cheapest way to find out about someone and the suggestion is do a lot of it before you commit to a relationship. The uneasiness and fears really go away when you begin the process of making love to a cock.