I h ate it when I do this..but I've got nothing else to do or anyone to speak with..I apologize this thread is full of negtivity..if you don't want that kind of stuff please turn around and keep moving..I really consider myself as one of the unluckiest persons alive..god damn I h ate the ranting and the people who rant and I h ate myself for doing this more than I h ate myself for anything else and don't know why I'm still doing this stupidity..long story short..I'm unwanted!! That's the truth..since I've been in high school I was always too shy to lose my virginity and stayed virgin until college and then had this stupid night stand with someone unattractve just to get the job done and break the damn curse..and ever since I had no relationships except the last one with someone I didn't love, she thought I'm the best but I knew she was stupid because I was her first, I even taught her how to give a damn blowjob..can you fucking imagine?!! so basically even when I tried to get my life going as the others do after all these years I ended up with someone not to be called attractive in my book, why did I keep along with her then? because I was fucking alone and you know nothing about being lonely unless you are..and yet I joined here trying to find a resort from my loneliness, so far it has done nothing but increasing the suffering..I let others feed on my generous words while all they do is kicking me in the nuts and feeding on my degradation and misery and all I thought they are just "too shy" while shy isn't the word for someone who voluntarily joined sexual website...while sometimes I feel like yea they are right..we are on a porn website, why would they waste their fucking "precious" time with someone like you when they have pretty numbered other members who are more likely to be more attractive than you and even having bigger set or whatever?!!...oh boy I feel so pathetic!! This is not me!! My life is turning upfuckingside down because of a stupid dick I have?! That's the deal?! get a big one and you're the man?! and what's about all this humiliation shit?! That's so mean and vile!! Why don't I get anyone in my fucking miserable life? Do they see thru my pants and get sick?!! Why do I try to compensate that need by being here? seeking for attention?! FUCK that's beyond pathetic..I h ate *WHAT'S THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE H WORD?!!* myself for being that kind of person..or maybe I'm an insecure boy who needs to learn how to control his life


I started to think is it my looks my appearance? my personality? words? attitude? what the fuck is WRONG?!! I feel like mr bean with his retarded character and his weird long awaited stupid gf...


Fuck I ranted a lot, go to sle ep folks!!