Well. Its been a year and i have to put it out there to the syd and syc community...

So, some may know but the majority not.
At 11 April 2016 this girl lets call her "A" called me in the phone and we talked for the last time since then...

I was going out with her for a year. All day every day. Like 24/24 ...7/7... I invested emotions all this time. Create feeling while as i later understand was not working for both ways...

You se, everyone tells that she wa a prostitude. I was in denial. There was signs but i never admit it. Then time passed and she take the decision to...move up lets say category.

She moved to a bigger town and then everyone again told me... "Ha now she is not going to be paid 5 euros for a blowjob now she is going to earn so many money that she is going to forget you"...

Still i did not believe anything. Still there was signs but... Come on how to admit something like that... And then suddenly she stopped talking to me. No calls no messages. And she came back and i find her to talk...

And she was furius. She said that "i" am calling her a whore... So injustice. I was in denial, everyone else called her whore. And one thing to another... She was not able to understand me.

Everyone said that she was looking for an excuse...

The thing is. All this year i did not get over it. Still have feelings. Someone in here mentioned that..."hey you are a greek,of course you have feelings"...

There is days i am ok. There is days i am not...

But now is the days that a year is complete and it happened to be the days that she is here again...

Usually since she moved to the other town she came here for a day maybe two. Now she is here 10 days. And she is all around with those guys... And i feel like...

I have my problems. Like my job is insecure. My car is broken... And... Fuck i can not control my feelings...

In a month is her birthday. I so much want to talk to her and so much afraid to...

Afraid a negativ reaction which will mean that we are over for ever... But my friends says "wake up you already lost her"...

Fuck this feelings. I want to be like her. Ruthless. Take advandage of everyone. Do what i want without regrets. I want to be emotionlesss...

Or ...!!!